Days and nights of drizzle and downpours.
Downed trees and flooded basements.
We need the rain. Big time.
In some parts of the area, it's still raining.
It has been a rainy 90 days in our house.
Ninety days ago today, we entered a storm.
Thunder. Lightning. Dark nights. Cloudy days.
Many tears cried. Many prayers lifted.
I have come close to losing my joy.
Truthfully, I have had days when I felt no joy, no happiness, no hope.
There have been Thursdays when I couldn't bring myself to write a Thankful Thursday post.
It felt forced and phony, so I didn't bother.
It's still raining. The storm hasn't completely passed by us yet.
But I am grateful. Thankful.
For friends who bring meals and stay for a while to talk.
For friends who meet me at cafes to drink lemonade and talk.
For the wife who brought muffins and her husband who sent a letter of encouragement.
The note she included with the muffins contains a phrase that will surely be a future blog post, perhaps even the title of one of the books I have yet to write... I need to ask her permission to use it.
He sent the letter snail mail. A real letter in an envelope with a stamp.
And the other man in our church who sent a letter a couple of weeks ago. Handwritten with a stamp on the envelope.
The emails and notes and flowers and phone calls - a deluge of another kind. A deluge of love.
The pastors who have made hospital visits.
The friend who meets me in the prayer room and holds my hand. Hugs me. Makes me laugh in the midst of my weeping.
For wine and coffee and matcha green tea lattes and fresh juices and kombucha.
For medical insurance and hospitals and nurses and techs and doctors.
For good lawyers and guardians ad litem when you need them.
For the legal system - especially when it works smoothly and in your favor.
For text messages from other mothers in similarly difficult situations.
For those moments when I know that I know that I know that I am not alone.
For being able to speak Spanish - to encourage another family in the same situation at the hospital.
For a new therapist that I love. She makes me laugh and cry and think and hold on to hope.
I am grateful for my dear friend, Karen, who introduced me to the song from which the title of this blog post is taken: "Praise You in This Storm" by Casting Crowns.